Chapter 34

Back in Chicago a few weeks later...

"Damn woman, so perfect on your knees for me." He pushed his cock deeper into my mouth.  I swallowed around it and he stroked his hand through my hair.  "God I love you." He moaned again pulling back a little before pushing it deeper into my throat.

"So damn perfect. You're the best, you suck cock like a pro baby, my pro. You do everything just like I love."

I inhaled deeply through my nose and relaxed my throat even more and he rammed his cock all the way into my throat.  His balls were at my lips and his eyes rolled into the back of his head.  As he looked down at me on my knees sucking his cock he groaned. "So damn perfect.  Oh God babe swallow, get my cum, swallow me." He moaned while I continued to swallow around his cock and he pulled back and thrust forward, over and over he pounded into my throat until finally he could not handle it anymore.  Thankfully after getting the promise ring I removed the restriction from cumming in my mouth.  He let loose and came hard, I never tasted a thing since he was buried so deep down my throat it was way beyond my taste buds.

When he pulled his cock out of my throat he watched it come out inch by inch and got a feeling of pride at that.  Seeing that his woman had all seven inches of him in her mouth and down her throat. I am actually kind of proud at that moment too that I've learned to deep throat him with no fear.

He immediately bent down at the waist and kissed me hard. "I love you, with every fiber of my being I trust you honey.  You have given me back the ability to believe a woman when she says she loves me and won't ever hurt me. Thank you."

I smile at him.  "I am happy I have given you that back completely because I am close to believing that forever can exist."

He held up her left hand. "Is it because of that?"

"Not necessarily. It is a feeling of belonging, it is a feeling of knowing that someone loves me and is here for me. Yes the promise helps, a wedding ring will help but I know that even though marriage is intended to be forever that does not always work.  I'm happy to feel the love from you on a regular basis."

He pulled her to her feet sitting her on the bed.  He tucked himself back into his jeans and smiled.  "Does the constant sex and physicality help in that?"

"Yes actually it does.  Human touch is very important to healing and with you being skin on skin with me so often I don't feel nearly as alone.  You are breaking through my shell quite well."

"You know when I can be fully naked with you it'll help more." He teased as I spank his ass as I walk by him going to the door.  "When's that wedding happening?" She laughed letting him know that he knows what will change the restrictions and she’s not budging on this.  Although he has no intention of forcing it he told her he wouldn’t be him if he didn’t try to see if the rules had changed from time to time.

Spending the time a few weeks ago with his family was so invigorating for Serena.  After that they did what Jon promised and they went up to Upper Michigan and met Kathy and a few others, Jon was fully invested in them being family and she knew that more and more each day.

Over the next few weeks Serena and Jon fall deeper into a relationship.  The oddity of a promise ring that early in their relationship didn't seem to affect them.  She loved the fact that everyone at work wanted to see the ring since very few people took that step anymore before engagement. Her friend Anne was nuts about the fact that they hadn't known each other that long. Serena told Anne that she wasn't going to marry Jon right this second, they still had a lot to learn about one another but both of them were committed to the same end goal.  It was something they both wanted to assure them that they weren't going in an opposite direction as the other.

Anne doesn't get that but Heather does. After talking with Serena about how much she hates dating and how much she doesn't want to be alone in this world anymore she understood that Serena was willing to take a risk on Jon because she knew the pain of being alone.  It helped that on the way back from Michigan Jon had booked the flights to stop in Wisconsin so they spend the night at her house in Appleton with Heather and her son.  Once she met Jon she knew the reason why Serena was so in love.  The guy treated her like a queen.

One night she took the train to Jon's and when she walked in he was on the phone with whom she thought was his ex wife based on the dialogue.

"No I'm not giving you more...No the kids have what they need I provide for them...don't even think about it, I'm not going back to court this is over and done and you know that, I'm not your meal ticket anymore, get a job. Just because I'm going to get married again does not mean you have a right to start this shit.  Goodbye." Jon then hung up and as he turned around all he could see were his girl's open arms.  He fell into her warm embrace.  "God I love that you're here. I love you Serena." He held on tight.

"I love you Jon.  Come here just relax with me on the couch." She walked him over to the couch and sat down, he then layed down on the couch and let him fall into the couch with his head on her lap. She put her hand on his shoulder and rubbed his arm.

"Sometimes I wonder what I saw in her to marry her.  She's so greedy she just wants more and more, now she wants a new car I'm like I'm not your damn  meal ticket anymore get a damn job."  He vented as Serena moved her hand and ran it into his hair.

"Damn baby that feels so good."

"I'm here honey, she cannot get to you anymore.  She is just your past I'm your future." She reached down and kissed his temple.

"Will you do something for me? I need to know its a whole new world now."

"Sure Jon what do you need?"

"Will you take your shirt and bra off while we sit like this.  I want to lay on my back and lick and suck on your nipples while you play with my hair."

"Sure honey let me go take a shower so I'm all clean."

"No I want you now, I know you were at work today I'm ok with a little perfume and honestly a little sweat is just you."

"Ok." She told him and pulled her shirt over her head reaching behind her she struggled to unhook her bra so he reached back with one hand and undid it.  Once it fell away he smiled and moved the pillows around so he could get in the position he wanted to be in.  "How do you do that? Do they teach guys unhooking a bra 101?"

"Oh no baby its a skill you master growing up. If you are a teenage boy and a girl gives you permission to touch her tits, you figure out the fastest way to get them available for you to play with.”

“So now I’m a girl giving you permission huh?”

“For this particular afternoon yes, I’m just going to lay here and suck on your nipple and enjoy some quiet time with my baby.  You can turn on the tv babe and watch a chick flick I have some breasts to play with.”

“I didn’t know you were quite that much of a boob man.”

“I’m a sex man, if you told me no about your boobs I’d ask for your pussy and if you said no to that I’d want to play with your ass. Some afternoon in our lives I will have you laying over my lap, stomach down and I’ll play with your ass, spanking you and stretching that tight little rosebud with my fingers or toys until you were jonesing for my cock up your ass deep.”

I look at him shocked, “Really?”

“OH yeah I can think of how fun it would be to push one finger, then two and finally get three fingers in your ass before I move and fuck that tight little hole.” He said bluntly just to see if he could shock me.

"You want that pretty bad eh?" I ask him.

"Yes and no, I want to shock you right now to see your reaction but yes I want it because I want to give you that experience without the memories of being mistreated.  Then if its something you like we continue if not we don't."

"So you'll talk like this just to see if it'll shock me?" I ask him again not sure I believe that.

"Actually baby words are just that, remember, I don't give them value unless someone else does.  I like words I think they are fun so for me to talk dirty to you, I like it if it makes your body more eager to be with me.  If you retreat from me because of them then I know to not do that anymore.  So which is it babe? Do you like it when I talk dirty or not?" He asked with a smile.

"Actually I think it is kind of erotic. To know what you want to do to me."

He nibbled on her nipple and then licked it softly. "OH honey if I told you every dirty little thought on my mind you'd never talk to me again."

"OH yeah I would baby, your mouth has a way of making me smile."  

He smiled, "You know, I think as your almost fiancee its my job to push you beyond what you've experienced before.  I'll have to order some things to play with."

"Like what kind of toys?"

"Oh I'm thinking handcuffs and blindfolds and toys that expand, maybe some bondage items or some whips.  I don't know we'll sit down one night and look at the internet." He then sucked on my nipple before continuing.  "We'll look together and find the things that interest us.”