Chapter 23

The next day I get up before him and stumble to my office turning on my computer and change my status on my calendar to ‘WAH’ and then go make myself some coffee.

I take a shower in the spare room and shave and take care of myself knowing that if what the clouds looked like outside we weren’t going anywhere for a few days.

It wasn’t until around 1030 that Jon came out of the bedroom, already showered but looking tired still. “Hey honey how are you feeling?” He asked before giving me a kiss.

“100% thanks for picking me up yesterday.”

“No problem baby.” He gave me another kiss and then went and got some coffee before moving to the window to look at the lake. “Wow did they say how many inches already came down?”

“4 so far, expecting another 8 before the end of the night.”

“Good thing I brought a few days clothes just in case.” He smiled. “Want me to make you some breakfast or are you already way past that?”

“Way past.” I smiled at him.  “I’ve been working since 7.”  I then smile knowing I have an hour before our company t-con that was just called so I look at him wondering if he’ll play with me for a few.  I walk over to the lake view windows and start looking out.

“Jon do you believe we can barely see the lake anymore?”

He walked over to me with his cup of coffee in his hands. “I know it’s nuts out there.”

I look at him and decide I’m going to try to give him head.  Attitude, I remember the first lesson, “Put the coffee down Jon.”

“Why? You don’t share?”

I grab a pillow and put it on the floor hoping he’ll see this as my way of showing him I want to please him and give him pleasure.

“Put the coffee down Jon and unzip your pants.”

He smiled huge and did as he was told.  Oh hell yeah, he thought, she wants to try this I’m all game.

He lets me kiss his abdomen for a few minutes and then I reach in and take his cock out of his pants.  He’s so hard from just the idea of getting a blow job that it doesn’t take much.  I freak out though as I look at it, its so big. “Jon it won’t fit.”

“Oh baby just try, lick it and get it as wet as you can, it will help it slide in your mouth better.”

“Are you sure?”

“Positive.  I’m never going to hurt you, you just have to try new things and sucking my dick is new for now.” He even put his hand on the back of my head. “you’ll be a pro at giving me this pleasure soon, you just have to want it, remember what your knees are for babe.” He smiled at me knowing that phrase from the song has become a calming thing for me as we talk about blow jobs.

“OH I want it.” I smile up at him from my knees.

His grin was perfect.  “OK then baby show me, suck me.”

There in the morning light, in front of the whole world, but yet no one, I gave him pleasure that I felt was well deserved.   Not just for being a good boyfriend and coming to pick me up yesterday, but more importantly for being the man and admitting to what his desires were. Especially for opening up and telling me stuff I’d never find out from just googling him, it truly made me feel like we have a relationship.  I’d tried to have that kind of a relationship with other men in my life and they lied, they withheld who they truly were and from what I could tell Jon wasn’t doing that. He was showing me who he was - warts and all.

When he reached his climax he pulled me to my feet and kissed me. “Wow that’s a great way to wake up in the morning.”  He didn’t think he was going to have to teach me nearly as much as I thought I needed.  The fact that I pretty much demanded that he allow me to suck him off meant lesson 1 was already complete.  I didn’t take him very deep but I got the job done, so 2 and 3 he’d have to work on. Four will take care of itself with enough encouragement.

I smirk, “Well I had an ulterior motive.  I have a conference call at 1130 that you have to be quiet during.”

“OH trying to put me in blissful state of quiet, well Serena let me tell you. It worked.  I can go into your room and read or something.”

I smile at him, “The call is only scheduled for 15 minutes I think its them telling us to take a snow day, so you can just stay in the living room and look sexy I’ll be in my office anyway.”

Just as I thought the call was to tell us to take the rest of today and tomorrow off with pay.  IF we have VPN access at home they’d appreciate it if we could check in twice during the day to make sure nothing major was missed but otherwise stay home and stay safe.

I hang up and run to the living room and jump on the couch. “I’m free, they gave us today and tomorrow off because of the weather.”

“Awesome.” Jon pulled me to him for another kiss. “Ok so talk to me, I’ve been putzing around on my laptop and you said you got a Paragard IUD right?”

“Yep.” I answer him laying with my head down on his lap.

“So this thing lasts 10 yrs, non hormonal that you said last night but I’m supposed to be able to feel the little strings inside you.”

“Yeah but only if you’re really reaching for them, supposedly they stick just a little bit out of my cervix. Why are you asking?”

“Because it also says we can have sex as soon as your comfortable and the birth control is effective immediately.”

“Yes and well since we have all this time on our hands.” I smile knowing damn well its time, my body gets tingly every time I kiss him and I’m getting tired of cold showers. “Did you bring condoms with you?”

“I did actually and you’re right holy shit they’ve changed a lot in 30 yrs.”

I move to sit on his lap and smile. “So what kind did you pick?”

He laughed and looked down a little embarrassed. “I got lots of different kinds, like a package of each I think.”

“What?” I ask him with a smile.

“Well when we were talking while I was in Jersey last and you mentioned the requirements of condoms I ordered a sampler pack so I didn’t have to go into a store. It had 100 condoms in it, all different brands and styles.”

“You just didn’t want to walk into a store and buy any.”

“You are correct. I haven’t done that in 30 yrs babe, except with my son, I walked in with him making him buy them at 14 when he started talking about girls too much.”  

“Thats not nice to your kid.”

“Nicer than me being a grandpa when he’s 14.  So far so good he told me he’s still never had sex without a condom so he learned something.”

“Good to know.” She smiled and kissed him.

Chapter 22

I’m so happy he said that, it was resonating with me.  I decide while talking is fun, talking about sex makes me a bit horney so I move up his body and start kissing him. He’s so amazing that he doesn’t immediately go for sex, especially after the procedure I had today but also he’s not just all about my boobs or anything either, he lets the kiss speak for itself for a while until I feel him expanding under me.  “You need me to take care of that?” I ask with a smile.

“No baby its all good, I’m not going to ask you to do that after that appointment today and besides I never need you to do it like its a job, at any point if you want to blow me I’m not going to say no.  Except if we’re in a position that would get us on the front page of a paper.  We always have to be discreet because of the press.”

“So then the best place for me to slide to my knees to suck your cock is in the living room in front of those lake front windows? Especially since no one can see us and it gives you a thrill.”

“Exactly.” He smiled.  “Preferably with your straight hair if we’re going for fantasy. I want to be able to wrap your hair around my shaft.  But I’d love to see you slide to your knees, naked, as the sun beams in those windows and baths you with a soft glow as you open your mouth and I slide my entire cock down your throat.  Damn that sounds damn near perfect.”

I know I’m playing with his sex drive but his hand found its way to my breast so I figure I’m ok.  “So what would make it perfect?”  I roll onto my back to let him play more and he smiled, “It’d be perfect if there was an adult movie on and you were copying the girl or if the Giants were on and winning, scoring all the time.”

“Wow polar opposite items for the TV.”

“Actually thats kind of a fantasy.” He admits to me.

“What is?”

“Being with a woman that was so secure in her body and our relationship that you’d let me put a movie in and you’d copy everything the girl on the movie does.  When she kissed the guy you’d kiss me. When she took her top off you would.  It’d be provocative to have that movie come to life 3d.” He grinned.

At that point I kissed his neck. “You’ve got quite the vivid imagination there sexy.”

“Does it have to be all imagination? Is that something you’d consider doing?” He asked shocked that he even feels comfortable having this conversation so early in our relationship.  Considering we hadn’t even had sex yet. To him that seems to be a point of change in a relationship when you can talk about naughty things.

“I’m not sure Jon I’ve never watched one, I’ve heard they are kind of degrading to women.”

“Some of them are I won’t lie.  But just like regular movies you only watch the type of stuff that interests you like action, comedy, romance and that isn’t the type that would interest me.”

I move a little more and kiss him again.  “So what type interests you?”

“I like normally the kind with some really interesting positions or 2 on 1.”

“Seriously?” I ask him interested to hear this.

His hand runs on my back and he smiles.  “Yes after I got married I realized asking my wife to fuck another guy or girl with me would be frowned upon I realized I could get the visual I was looking for and never actually break my wedding vows.  So I like seeing a woman get some enjoyment from multiple guys or a guy get enjoyment from multiple girls.”

“Wow, I never thought in a million years I’d be having this conversation with my boyfriend.”

“Honey its a great way to learn something, if you wanna see other techniques on giving head for example, I can tell you things til I’m blue in the face but maybe you’re the type of girl that wants to see it, we could watch a movie all about blow jobs.”

“Seriously that exists?” I ask him and he rolls me over and puts the majority of his body weight on the bed between my legs. “Yes honey, there’s movies on that, there’s movies on just fingering women, there’s movies only on anal you name it its probably out there.” He smiled as he moved my shirt up and started licking the undersides of my breasts.

“So you’ve watched these before?”

“OH yeah, quite a bit, there’s only so many times you can imagine your wife opening her thighs for you when you’re on the road, sometimes my hand needed a little help seeing the prize.”

“And she didn’t mind?”

“She didn’t like the idea so I didn’t tell her after a while.  I was gone sometimes 4 months straight without sex, I wasn’t about to cheat so I figured it was a good substitute.”

“So you’d want to watch one of these with me?”

“I’d love to, like I said babe its a fantasy to have you not hate them and actually act it out. It’d be so perfect if you actually liked something about them and got turned on enough to want me more when we watched them.  I think it would be so damn erotic to know you’re that comfortable with sex and your body and your lust for me.”  He brought both his hands up and started grabbing my chest and playing with the nipples.

“What about the girls though? They are just used for a hole in those.”

“Yep in many cases they are used for lots of holes, but remember people make their own choices, so I choose to believe the girls in these movies figured it was the best thing for them at that moment and they made a good amount of money getting fucked for the camera. I have a feeling its just a job to them like a gynecologist looks at the sweet spot all day but doesn’t see it that way.”

“Good point.” I smile and pull him to me for more kisses. “Do you think a day will come when you treat me like that - like I’m a port in a storm?”

“Baby that could very likely get me in a world of hurt with you.  I will someday probably look at you that way but I don’t want you to think poorly about me because of that. Doing what I do for a living its tiring, but not just the travel what’s the hardest is not having a safe place to be while I’m gone.  Everywhere I go people want something from me, something typically having to do with money of some sort.  Normally they want me to give someone a leg up, or listen to this artist and give free advice or they want a moment of my time so they can get a sound clip to promote their radio show or something.  Its always something.  So yes I’m hoping that as we get closer you become that safe

place for me to be. That place where I can come home and a little kissing and your legs open and allow me inside where it’s safe to just be me, just be with my woman where all you want is a orgasm. Something I’m more than happy to provide and then after you’ll wrap your arms and preferrably your legs around me too and keep me in the shelter of your embrace until the world starts looking normal again.”

“Jon I had no idea how touring felt to you.  Honey I think we both need some sleep, lets continue this discovery in the morning.” We kiss softly for a while and finally fall asleep for the night.

Chapter 21

“Well I thought that was just part of being with you? You’ve slapped my butt a few times already in passing.” I smiled at him.

“Yeah I have but he does it in the book in a whole different way - to correct her behavior would you like that?”

I turn my body and lay mostly on top of him. “I guess the question I have Jon is would you?”

“Hey hey how’d we get off the topic of what you’d like? I need to know if I’m supposed to be dominant over you.”

“well not the way he is in the book, I told you the way I want it.”

“Does that include spankings? I’m thinking it should because if you do something I told you I was going to I’d have to correct that behavior. Like bring your car in for an oil change for example.” He says with a smile.

“I’m not incredibly patient but I think with you babe I could learn to take my punishment like a good girl.”

“Ok I like having this conversation so I don’t get myself in trouble later. What about toys and anal play thats in that book too.” Jon asked.

“Well toys I can agree to pretty easily, I’m a whole lot more comfortable in my body now than I ever used to be.  Anal play? Well that I’m a little more apprehensive about.”

“Why? Stigma with it or bad experience or both?”

“Both.”

“So you’ve done it before?” He asked, he had been with Dot so long that they had tried it, after all they had to keep things interesting after 30 years. But she never really liked it much so it didn’t become part of their sex life overall.

“Yes, it was a form of punishment my abusive ex used with me.”

He quickly sat up and looked me in the eye, running his fingers into my unruly hair. “I’m not like that. I’ll never hit you and never force you to do anything you don’t want. Ever.”

I kissed him. “And I’ll never be weak enough to allow it to happen again but thanks Jon. Its good to know you’re against it.”

“So is it something you ever want to try again just so you can have a good memory of it?” He asked laying back down with me wondering if I would since it was a sensation he enjoyed when he’s tried it before but since Dot said no he never had it again.

“You know I probably would like to.  Just like with giving head you can teach me how to do that without fear and without apprehension. It’d be nice not to get scared senseless when anyone touches my ass.”

He kissed me. “Its something we can explore but much later.  In my opinion it should really only be with your spouse.”

“Why do you say that?”

Jon rolled me over onto my back and was looking down at me before he gave me a kiss.  “The kind of trust needed for that typically is something couples don’t get to in a non committed relationship.  I mean you and I are a couple but either one of us at any time can say you know what this isn’t working for me good bye.  Its not the same, in marriage you get pissed off, irritated, bored, annoyed anything at all and you look at your spouse, tell them I’m pissed at you or bored with you - but instead of goodbye its - I’m going to go for a walk I’ll see you in 30 min.  You’re always coming back, it’s never a fear that you’re going to be alone again.  That to me is one of the best parts of being married. Thats also why I think some of the more difficult stuff to experience should be in that commitment because then if its a bad experience for one of you or both you don’t have to worry about losing the relationship just because you say no to something.”

“Ok Jon so what other things are you interested in?” I reach up and kiss him.

“Toys, teasing you with stuff. I love the idea of you working here all day with nipple teasers on or a virbrator in your panties that I have the remote control to.”

“Tease.” I smile up at him.

“Yep, there’s something to be said about turning your girl on.  Even better when I can turn you on and then leave you be for a little while, spank your ass a few times and then order you to do something and have you do it.”  He grins admitting a little more than he wanted to.

“Ok explain that one babe, you’d order me to do what?”

“Oh I don’t know but with a turned on woman who has a nice pink ass you may be more than willing to suck my dick or get into doggie style for nice pounding, maybe you’d even get into a position you don’t necessarily enjoy but I do, just because you know you’ll get some sex if you do.”

“Oh so tell me about this position?”

“OH honey I have no idea until we start having sex.  Honestly I’m not the type of guy to do you in the same position twice.  We might end up in missionary a lot but we’ll do two or three others before getting there nightly.”

“So is that what you’re into Jon?Like I want dominance you like positions?”

“Positions and role playing. I’d like you to dress up like the good little catholic school girl, or the cheerleader because they’d never look at me in high school it’d be nice to bend one over my knee make her ass nice and pink and then have my way with her.” he grinned.

“you’ve thought this all out haven’t you?”

“Well the cheerleader thing oh yeah.  But the rest since I started looking at Halloween costumes in Jersey when I was bored and Jesse told he was probably going to miss his Halloween dance because of his leg.   Some of these ideas came to me.”

“Can I ask you something without you getting upset?”

“You can ask me anything I’ll let you know if I don’t wanna answer it.” He told me with a kiss to the top of my head.

“Did Dot play dress up with you?”

“Honey I was with her 30+ years, because of how long we were together and the depth of our relationship,  there’s not much she didn’t do with me at least once; dress up, spankings, bondage, anal, we even had a threesome forever ago.  The difference between that and now is most every one of those things was done as a means to an ends.  Like she’d say if I dress up as this cop for you will you stay home for the month of August. If I do bondage with you will you not tour until January.  Everything was also a way to get something else.  Right now the only thing I’m hearing from you about stuff is curiosity and thats such a better mindset to go into things with.”

“So there’s nothing that would be new to you too?”

“Well some stuff mostly with toys and how many places you let me put them.”

“Explain” I copy his statement from earlier.

“Well I’ve never been able to get head from a girl and have toys in both of her other holes.” He admits.

By this point we’ve flipped back over so I was on top. I push myself up off of him and look at him. “Does that excite you?”

“I’m not sure, I’ve seen it in movies of course but I’m not sure with a real life woman if its actually possible.  I think it’d be fun though to be doing you nice and deep and have a small toy in your ass vibrating preferably because then I’d feel it too and it’d probably get us both off.”

I reach down and kiss him, “Thanks for the honesty honey.”   I realize while some of this stuff sounds completely foreign to me since I’ve had so little experience sexually in comparison to a man thats almost 10 years older than me and 30 years more experience in commitment I remind myself I have to be open to options for us rather than closed to them.

“How hard is to keep a sex life interesting for decades?”

“Actually the first 10 years are the hardest.” He admits running his hands on my back while we talk.

“Why do you say that Jon?”

“Because thats the decade where you still question if the person truly wants to be with you long term so you’re almost scared to bring up stuff.  We did a whole lot of doggystyle, cowgirl and standing positions those first 10 yrs. I don’t think I tied her up for the first time until year 9 maybe.  Once you calm down and really honestly resolve yourself to the commitment to one another it’s easier to stay engaged because then you allow yourself what you and I already have.  An open dialogue about desires.  You’ll never keep your partner interested if you fail to find out what interests them.”

Chapter 20

Jon had spent Sunday with Jesse, he paid for his kid to fly first class to come see him for the game and then go home Sunday after the game so he wouldn’t miss school.  Most of the afternoon I got cute texts from Jon about how great his girlfriend is, and I even got a text of a pic of him and Jesse at the game with a smiley that said “thank you”.

When I walk into the office Monday I feel pretty proud of myself since, even though I only got to spend one day this weekend with my man I know he thought of me all day Sunday too.  I had everything finally ordered for the office and the deliveries were arriving Wednesday so I would just work from home or ask Jon to house sit for me if I was needed at work.

*Hi Serena - when you get a second can you come up to my office?* Kal pinged me.

*Sure Kal - need me to bring anything?*

*No its just an FYI I’d rather not do on the computer.*  

This intrigued me - this company was 1000% different on communication, they wanted people to know stuff rather than try to hide things.

*on my way* I pinged him and then grabbed my coffee cup, notebook and green pen and walked upstairs.

Knocking on his door he told me to come in and once I did, we sat and talked about what was going on, he let me know that Rich had resigned, he was allowed to tell me that it was due to marital problems that he chose to leave the city.  They would be working on replacing him but for now I would report directly to Kal.

“No problem, thats all I’ve ever known here so thats great.”

“Great do you have an update for me on where you're at with this music thing you wanted to go after?”

“Yeah, I’m hoping you have some contacts in country music, I’ve got some big names in Rock and Roll on board.  But what I want to do is offer a $15 for $20 offer on merchandise and also I’m working an angle with parking, somehow get the band working with me on covering it.  Like 2 for 1 or something on parking and food.”

“Ok those are angles we never took on music.  We’d always just offer discounted tickets. So where did this idea come from?”

“I’m addicted to concerts, I’ve seen hundreds and I can tell you Chicago has to be one of the worst places to see them because I went to a Bon Jovi show at Soldier field.  We had crappy tickets  and paid $52 for them and parking at Soldier was $55 a car.  I refused, I told my friends that there was no reason that parking should ever equal the price of the ticket and it got me thinking. I know a few people that have worked or do work in the music industry so I was able to get some insight and buy in from the rock and roll side, now I want country.”

“Sounds good Serena I’ll look into some contacts and send you what I have.”

“Thanks Kal I’ll see you tomorrow I’ve got an appointment offsite.”

“Awesome I won’t be in the office tomorrow its supposed storm insane tonight so I’m just working from home tomorrow you might want to as well.”

“Wow I hadn’t even listened to the weather forecast so maybe I’ll follow suit.  Taking the train in the snow isn’t always fun.”

“You don’t drive?”

“I have a car and know how but parking in this city is crazy so I take the public transit if its at all possible.”

“OH good thing I found out I’ll make sure to notify HR for your bonus.”

“Bonus?”

“Yeah we try to be as green as possible so anyone that takes mass transit 50% of the month gets $100 bonus on their check each month.”

“Wow thats cool, thanks Kal.”

“It was just one of the things the founders wanted, we figured if this city provided such opportunities we should reward the staff that takes advantage of it.”

I leave Kal’s office and head back to mine once there I call Jon.

“Hey baby what’s up?” Jon smiled knowing who it was obviously by caller id.

“Well I was calling to invite you to spend the night tonight maybe a few days actually. I hear we are supposed to get some intense weather tonight so I’m working from home tomorrow.  I figure if you want to come over and bring your computer we can look for places for you tomorrow while home.”

“Sounds good, will you cook for me too?”

“OH now you’re pushing it.”

“I’ll bribe you with kisses and other things.”

“Nice Jon. I may not be up for that tonight.”

“why?” He’s confused considering the last few nights we were together I was all about getting physical.

“I have my birth control appointment in about 45 minutes so depending on how that goes I’ll be good or not.”

“Do you want me to meet you there?”

“Nah I should be ok honey but I’ll call you when I leave and you can meet me at my place.”

“Ok babe call me if you want me to pick you up, if the weather is supposed to come in lets just pick up food on the way home and then we don’t have to deal with it.  Maybe I should just pick you up regardless.  What’s the address you’ll be at?”

“I’ll be 750 N Franklin St.”

“Ok baby I’ll plan to be there for what 430? Will that be enough time?” He had no idea how long these appointments last.

“Sure honey I don’t know how long these things last but an hour sounds right.”

What happens however is the appointment takes only 45 minutes and at the end of it I was in tears in pain during the appointment.  I walk out to the street hobbling and not feeling the affects of the painkillers the Dr gave me after I was done.  I had an IUD put in and the sounding of my uterus hurt, not horribly but enough that I was now more scared of the gyno than I am of the dentist.  I’m sitting on a bench outside in the snow when Jon pulls up.

“Baby why are you out here in the snow?” He asked walking up to me after getting out of the car. He doesn’t see the tear stains on my cheeks until I look up at him.

“What in the hell happened?”

“I just want to go home Jon. Can we go home please?”

As much as he wants to run inside and go apeshit on the Dr he doesn’t, he helps me into the backseat of the car and tells Frank its ok to drive away.  My phone rings then and I know its Anne from the Jovi ringtone.  “Can you just tell her I’ll call her later?” I hand him my phone and lay my head down on his lap.

“Hey Anne its Jon.”

“What are you doing answering Serena’s phone? Is she ok?”

“Yes Anne she’s ok, she just had a Dr’s appointment today and isn’t feeling up to talking now, she said she’d call you later though ok?”

“Ok Jon thanks I’ll talk to you later.’

After he hung up he just tried to comfort me while we drove back to my place.  It took us almost 35 minutes to go 8 miles because of the insane traffic with the snow.  Its not until we get upstairs at my place he wants to do something nice for me and I tell him I’d really just like my heating pad and mac and cheese.  Since he wants to make me happy he finds the heating pad and puts me on the couch with it with a blanket before he’s off to try to make me mac and cheese.

We have soft conversation while he’s trying to cook he asked me about the appointment. “Ok honey I’ve been with women a long time birth control appointments aren’t supposed to hurt what did he do?”

“Sounded my uterus.”

“Ok dumb male here, what the hell does that mean?”

“Basically honey he put something up inside me that measured how long and deep my uterus was to make sure the IUD would be compatible with my body.  It just hurt because my uterus has never had a baby in it, I’m starting to feel better already it was just the oddity of it all.”

He brought me over mac and cheese and sat down eating it with me.  “So why this form of birth control?”

“I got the Paragard IUD because its hormone free.  I’d rather not put more pills in my body if I don’t need to and this is a way to have protection and not have to worry about it for up to 10 yrs and with some women the added benefit is your body stops having a period.  That would suit me just fine.” I smile.

“Oh me too, I’d love that idea.  Sex anytime we wanted it.” He smiled.  “Thank you for doing this for us but I’m sorry you're hurting.”

“Its ok Jon, I know it won’t last its actually already gone except for a little cramping so I should be fine soon.  Thanks for making us dinner.” I smiled at him and once he brought the dishes to the sink he came back.  “What do you say we turn on the fireplace, watch some tv and cuddle for a while?”

That was one of his best ideas yet.  For about the next 2 hrs we spend it in quiet time, a movie on tv and our arms wrapped around each other.  When the movie is over I get up feeling totally fine again and grab my phone. “I was supposed to call Anne wasn’t I?”

“Yes but I’d much rather kiss you and play with you than watch you talk on the phone.”

“Oh you sas why don’t you go close the curtains necessary for us to be alone and I’ll see what Anne wanted then maybe we can have some adult time.” I kiss him before he walked away.

Once I call Anne I find out she was just calling to say hi, nothing major going on.  She asked me how my job was going and how Jon was going and all was good. I told her we’d have to get together again as soon as the weather cleared but Jon and I had checked the forecast and we were in for 3 storms over the next week so we’d have to play it by ear.  March in Chicago was a mean month.

Once we hung up I went in search of Jon and found him in my bed, presumably naked from what I could tell reading his kindle- or mine I wasn’t sure.  “What are you reading?” I asked him moving closer to the bed.

Instead of answering right away he started with a demand “I want you naked, and I’m not sure what I’m reading because I picked up your kindle by mistake and its saucy.”

“Oh yeah 50 Shades taught me about a whole new genre I never knew existed.”

“Well then get in bed and lets talk about some of the stuff in your naughty books and see if we’ll like it.” He offered shocked at himself honestly that he was willing to do this before we even had sex. If he freaks her out by his desires he may never get sex. But then again he realized he’d rather know than have to live a lie and hide his desires.

I had stripped everything but my panties and put my clothes in the dirty laundry.

“Naked I said.” He somewhat ordered.

“Jon I’m spotting so I’m not getting naked deal with it.”

“Ok naked from waist up then.” He smiled and I got in bed with him.

He quickly pulled me into his arms and let my head rest on his chest.   “Ok so I did read a bit of 50 Shades so talk to me, what part of that series excites you?” He asked with his hand on my back and softly caressing me.

“I like his strength.”

“Explain.”

“I’ve been alone for a long time.  The last guy before you was about 4 yrs ago - I’m used to doing everything myself, all the household chores, all the outdoor stuff, the car, the bills all of it. I yearn for a guy to take some of that off my shoulders and honestly that character puts her in her place and lets her know there’s certain stuff she no longer has to worry about or do, he’ll take that control and she can just make him happy.  Its very appealing to someone with 40 plates in the air spinning at the same time.”

He reached down and moved my head up for a kiss.  “Thanks for the honesty honey, what else though? Is there anything he did to her that you’d like me to try?”

“Jon I’ve had a very vanilla life. I’m open to new experiences but the idea of some to the stuff he was doing makes me cringe. I’d like the blindfold I think, the music being on loud to make it harder to hear where you are, that anticipation I think would intensify my reactions.  I like being tied to things, I’ve done handcuffs with a guy that was fun.  But the other things I’m not so sure, I don’t like his demanding nature outside of the bedroom like what clothes she wears, sorry thats just not me.  I think maybe with time and trust I’d be open to other stuff.”

He looked at me and rubbed his hand over my cotton covered ass. “What about a good spanking?”