Chapter 19

“So then Jon” I sit up on the bed next to him. “You’ll actually give me lessons on how to please you that way?”

“Yes absolutely.  There’s really only 4 lessons.”

“OK and what are they?” Since he seems willing to talk, I ask him while laying down on my side and he turns to his side facing me.

“The first is attitude.”

“Attitude? What do you mean?”

“Well hon, 70% of a great blow job is a woman that wants to be giving it.  That makes all the difference between - ok if she does this long enough by default I’ll cum and OMG she’s blowing my mind. There’s nothing more intoxicating to a man than to look down at his girl and she has this look in her eyes like yep he’s all mine I’m in control.”

“The woman has control?”

He ran his hand on my hip and up my ribcage over my left breast where he gets stuck.  “OH yeah baby even when you’re on your knees which should be a subservient position by default, you have all the control because of what you have in your mouth.  I would do anything you want at that point.”

“What if what I want isn’t control?” I ask him with a kiss to his chin.

“Explain please.”

“Well one of the things I find intoxicating from a man is the air of confidence and control he has. I want to be the woman, not fight to be as strong as the man.  I’ve been fighting to show I’m strong long enough.”

He ponders that for a second and puts his hand up in my hair.

“Well think of it this way babe, when my cock is in your mouth you have the control to be WHO you want and if that means to you that you are the woman that relishes the knowledge that you’re exactly where you are supposed to be; on your knees in front of your man, then I have to say that’s perfect.  The point is that you relish that time, own it, be brave in that you suck and swallow strongly, not timidly.  For a woman that wants to give of herself and not compete for power getting on your knees either literally or figuratively is a perfect way to show that to your man.”

“Is that something you’d enjoy?” I ask him shyly.

“Hell yeah.” He says without hesitation.  “Most of the time to get a woman to give you head you have to convince her its not really subservient to do it.  But to hear that you want to give up that control and basically be submissive to me that means you want to please me and serve me - even better from my eyes.  Remember what your knees are for baby.” He grinned knowing somehow I’d get the song reference with it.

“Ok what’s the 2nd lesson?” I ask him liking his answer on the first on.

“Second lesson is diminishing fear.”

“How do you propose to do that?”

“Well with lots of practice of course.  There will be a lot of me giving you a signal and you moving to a position I want you in and then I’ll slide in your mouth.  We’ll do this 20 times in a night. At one point I’ll sit in the chair facing the lake and you will be kneeling next to me and I will have my hand in your hair but I’ll be controlling you sucking me.”

“How is this going to help when you know thats a trigger for me?”

“Because baby you have to get through that fear, and I’m going to guide you.  You know I’m not going to hurt you so when I push it in and take it out again you’re going to see that its not something to be scared of when its my body. We’re going to start off with my dick being soft so you should gain confidence before it gets hard.  You’ll be so used to it before we’re done with lesson 2 that you can and will be able to put my hand in your hair to help you push down on your head more.”

I stop and think about if I can do that with him for a few moments and then move up a little and kiss him.  “OK what’s lesson 3.”

“Lesson three is deep throating.  This one I think is the most difficult and normally is right after lesson 2, preferably the same night.”

“Why?”

“Well if we put it in your mouth 20 times in a row by then your mouth is used to opening and taking me inside.  Now we just need to relax your gag reflex enough to not freak out when we push it all the way down your throat.”

“What if I can’t do it?”

“Well thats where lesson 1 comes to play.  You want to please me right? You want to give up the control right?”

“Yes.”

“Saying no to deep throating isn’t because of anatomy its psychology.  If you want to give me that pleasure you will.  You won’t let size or fear take away from what you want.”

“Have you had to teach someone like this before?” She asked putting her head on his chest and wrapping herself tight in his arms.  It was Saturday so she could stay in this position all night and have no worries.

“No but I’ve fantasized about a woman wanting to learn from me so I’ll always get the perfect blow job every time she does it.”

“Really? There’s that much of a difference?”

“OH yeah attitude is key, if the woman is in the right frame of mind its quite euphoric for the guy.”

“So what’s lesson 4?”

“Its a mantra really - Want, Take, Have.”

I lift my head off his chest questioning him. “What are you talking about?”

“WANT to please me, TAKE control of the need inside of you to do so and HAVE fun giving into that desire.  Remember honey I’m sure as hell not going to tell you that you can’t suck me, only you will put limits on yourself.”