Chapter 21

“Well I thought that was just part of being with you? You’ve slapped my butt a few times already in passing.” I smiled at him.

“Yeah I have but he does it in the book in a whole different way - to correct her behavior would you like that?”

I turn my body and lay mostly on top of him. “I guess the question I have Jon is would you?”

“Hey hey how’d we get off the topic of what you’d like? I need to know if I’m supposed to be dominant over you.”

“well not the way he is in the book, I told you the way I want it.”

“Does that include spankings? I’m thinking it should because if you do something I told you I was going to I’d have to correct that behavior. Like bring your car in for an oil change for example.” He says with a smile.

“I’m not incredibly patient but I think with you babe I could learn to take my punishment like a good girl.”

“Ok I like having this conversation so I don’t get myself in trouble later. What about toys and anal play thats in that book too.” Jon asked.

“Well toys I can agree to pretty easily, I’m a whole lot more comfortable in my body now than I ever used to be.  Anal play? Well that I’m a little more apprehensive about.”

“Why? Stigma with it or bad experience or both?”

“Both.”

“So you’ve done it before?” He asked, he had been with Dot so long that they had tried it, after all they had to keep things interesting after 30 years. But she never really liked it much so it didn’t become part of their sex life overall.

“Yes, it was a form of punishment my abusive ex used with me.”

He quickly sat up and looked me in the eye, running his fingers into my unruly hair. “I’m not like that. I’ll never hit you and never force you to do anything you don’t want. Ever.”

I kissed him. “And I’ll never be weak enough to allow it to happen again but thanks Jon. Its good to know you’re against it.”

“So is it something you ever want to try again just so you can have a good memory of it?” He asked laying back down with me wondering if I would since it was a sensation he enjoyed when he’s tried it before but since Dot said no he never had it again.

“You know I probably would like to.  Just like with giving head you can teach me how to do that without fear and without apprehension. It’d be nice not to get scared senseless when anyone touches my ass.”

He kissed me. “Its something we can explore but much later.  In my opinion it should really only be with your spouse.”

“Why do you say that?”

Jon rolled me over onto my back and was looking down at me before he gave me a kiss.  “The kind of trust needed for that typically is something couples don’t get to in a non committed relationship.  I mean you and I are a couple but either one of us at any time can say you know what this isn’t working for me good bye.  Its not the same, in marriage you get pissed off, irritated, bored, annoyed anything at all and you look at your spouse, tell them I’m pissed at you or bored with you - but instead of goodbye its - I’m going to go for a walk I’ll see you in 30 min.  You’re always coming back, it’s never a fear that you’re going to be alone again.  That to me is one of the best parts of being married. Thats also why I think some of the more difficult stuff to experience should be in that commitment because then if its a bad experience for one of you or both you don’t have to worry about losing the relationship just because you say no to something.”

“Ok Jon so what other things are you interested in?” I reach up and kiss him.

“Toys, teasing you with stuff. I love the idea of you working here all day with nipple teasers on or a virbrator in your panties that I have the remote control to.”

“Tease.” I smile up at him.

“Yep, there’s something to be said about turning your girl on.  Even better when I can turn you on and then leave you be for a little while, spank your ass a few times and then order you to do something and have you do it.”  He grins admitting a little more than he wanted to.

“Ok explain that one babe, you’d order me to do what?”

“Oh I don’t know but with a turned on woman who has a nice pink ass you may be more than willing to suck my dick or get into doggie style for nice pounding, maybe you’d even get into a position you don’t necessarily enjoy but I do, just because you know you’ll get some sex if you do.”

“Oh so tell me about this position?”

“OH honey I have no idea until we start having sex.  Honestly I’m not the type of guy to do you in the same position twice.  We might end up in missionary a lot but we’ll do two or three others before getting there nightly.”

“So is that what you’re into Jon?Like I want dominance you like positions?”

“Positions and role playing. I’d like you to dress up like the good little catholic school girl, or the cheerleader because they’d never look at me in high school it’d be nice to bend one over my knee make her ass nice and pink and then have my way with her.” he grinned.

“you’ve thought this all out haven’t you?”

“Well the cheerleader thing oh yeah.  But the rest since I started looking at Halloween costumes in Jersey when I was bored and Jesse told he was probably going to miss his Halloween dance because of his leg.   Some of these ideas came to me.”

“Can I ask you something without you getting upset?”

“You can ask me anything I’ll let you know if I don’t wanna answer it.” He told me with a kiss to the top of my head.

“Did Dot play dress up with you?”

“Honey I was with her 30+ years, because of how long we were together and the depth of our relationship,  there’s not much she didn’t do with me at least once; dress up, spankings, bondage, anal, we even had a threesome forever ago.  The difference between that and now is most every one of those things was done as a means to an ends.  Like she’d say if I dress up as this cop for you will you stay home for the month of August. If I do bondage with you will you not tour until January.  Everything was also a way to get something else.  Right now the only thing I’m hearing from you about stuff is curiosity and thats such a better mindset to go into things with.”

“So there’s nothing that would be new to you too?”

“Well some stuff mostly with toys and how many places you let me put them.”

“Explain” I copy his statement from earlier.

“Well I’ve never been able to get head from a girl and have toys in both of her other holes.” He admits.

By this point we’ve flipped back over so I was on top. I push myself up off of him and look at him. “Does that excite you?”

“I’m not sure, I’ve seen it in movies of course but I’m not sure with a real life woman if its actually possible.  I think it’d be fun though to be doing you nice and deep and have a small toy in your ass vibrating preferably because then I’d feel it too and it’d probably get us both off.”

I reach down and kiss him, “Thanks for the honesty honey.”   I realize while some of this stuff sounds completely foreign to me since I’ve had so little experience sexually in comparison to a man thats almost 10 years older than me and 30 years more experience in commitment I remind myself I have to be open to options for us rather than closed to them.

“How hard is to keep a sex life interesting for decades?”

“Actually the first 10 years are the hardest.” He admits running his hands on my back while we talk.

“Why do you say that Jon?”

“Because thats the decade where you still question if the person truly wants to be with you long term so you’re almost scared to bring up stuff.  We did a whole lot of doggystyle, cowgirl and standing positions those first 10 yrs. I don’t think I tied her up for the first time until year 9 maybe.  Once you calm down and really honestly resolve yourself to the commitment to one another it’s easier to stay engaged because then you allow yourself what you and I already have.  An open dialogue about desires.  You’ll never keep your partner interested if you fail to find out what interests them.”