Chapter 43

"Jon - baby can I ask you a question?" Serena asked him while she cuddled up to him on the plane heading to Hawaii the following day.

"Baby you have the ring, you can ask me anything. And now, I pretty much have to answer cos I have the other ring." He smiled and patted my butt.

"Silly man, so baby I just want to know, I know you love role playing but I never asked you why? What do you get out of it?"

"Acting." He answered honestly. "I get to play a character and I get to stretch my acting chops which I don't do anymore.  This is fun for me in that every time you and I play roles I get to explore something I gave up to focus on music again."

"Why did you give up on acting?"

"It just became too much, I was acting when I wasn't singing and it was me gone all the time. I wasn't getting any better scripts so I decided it wasn't worth my time, I could spend time at home with my kids that was an better investment."

"So now you're only acting is when you and I play?"

"Yep, I love playing with my baby." He smirked.

"What would you like to play my dear?" She smiled.

"I think we should talk about some other role play ideas, what other things could we do?" Jon asked.

"I'm not sure baby I think the teacher student one was fun.  How about massuese and client? That'd be quite erotic."

"What about something thats with the strong woman in charge I think that would be really hot."

"Baby I'm not ready for that."

Jon doesn’t even blink he just grabs my hand and shows me the wedding ring.  “Yes you are.  You have the thing you’ve always wanted, me, your soul mate.  I gave you everything I could to help you heal and feel whole again.  Now its time for you to give me things I want, and I want my wife strong and confident in our love.”

“I could be the Dr and you could be the patient, or cop and long haired kinda muscian who thinks he’s all that.” I smiled at him.

“Oh I am all that baby but I want to act and muscian isn’t acting for me.”

“Ok how about …”I stop to think.

“Come on baby, stretch that mind out what’s something you’ve wanted to do to me that you haven’t brought up?” Jon asks with a smile and his hand on my arm.

“Oh Jonny this is hard because my dream guy is in charge, I’ve had to be in charge of everything for so very long that thinking about being in charge isn’t quite a turn on but give me a few to come up with a role play that will give us both what we want.” I smile at him hoping he’ll understand.

He puts his hand gently on my face and pulls me slowly to him for a kiss.  “Baby we have a lifetime to come up with something.  I’ll still be here.”

A little later in the plane ride we move from kissing and talking about role playing to talking about our jobs and future.

"Jon, I want to find a small place to rent in Jersey City.  There's just no reason to spend a fortune on a place we'll be at 3 days a month. I would like $1000 a month max."

"Baby I love that you're thinking of finances like that but baby we're actually beyond rich, there's nothing we need to worry about when it comes to money.  If we want to spend $10k a month it would be fine. Besides in Jersey city $1000 won’t get us anywhere near the view I want or the safety we need for the odd chances you’re there alone.  Lets put the max at 3k."

"Spending a ton is pointless.  Look I bookmarked a few to be able to show you offline." I pulled my tablet out to start to show him some places I found in Jersey City.

"Ok I'm good with stepping down on the luxury with a few exceptions but you have to realize I know a few things about Jersey and what’s real and what isn’t price wise.”

"Like what exceptions?"

"We have to have a view of the NYC skyline and the place has to have a washer and dryer in the unit and must be over 1000 sq feet.  As long as its clean and safe I'm good as long as it meets the specks."

She moved and kissed him, "You crack me up, is this how you negotiate for the band stuff too?"

He put his hand on her leg, "Meaning."

"I'll give you what you want as long as you meet these requirements. You did that at our wedding too."

"Yes its a tactic I use, I know that people love to be able to make decisions but I also know there are things I will be miserable to deal with if I don't get my way on some of the stuff."

"So you're basically telling me you can be a diva?" She laughed.

"About certain things, like seeing you in a white wedding dress on our wedding - yes."

I shake my head and smile at him, “Do you think this will always work?”

“I imagine sooner or later you’ll just lay down the law on stuff so I better get my own way now.”

“Why do you say that?”

“Well in my experience if you don’t obey the wife there is hell to pay.”

I squeeze his knee, “Babe I’m not her, stop making me pay for her attitudes.  Talk to me about some of the stuff you want and don’t want, don’t assume I’ll act like her.”

“Ok babe, how do you think you’ll deal with it if we’re fighting at bed time? Who’s getting sent to the couch?”

“NO one, we don’t go to bed mad.”

“Its fine to say that but its not likely.  There are going to be nights when you’re like Jon you’re grounded from touching me, hands off the boobs I’m mad at you. Is that a night I have to go to the couch?”

“No why would I kick you out of bed, I’ve waited my whole life to get you in my bed.”

He smiled at that. “How are you going to handle sleeping next to someone you are mad at?” Jon asked me.

“Well baby” I kiss him then continue.  “Just because I’m mad at you doesn’t mean I don’t love you with all of my heart and soul.  Besides its our bed not mine or yours.”

“I love the way you think, but can I hold you to that when I piss you off?”

“Yes babe, feel free to remind me of this conversation. I’ll probably get annoyed by the fact that I said this in 20 yrs but then I’ll obey it because I really truly feel we have to make our marriage work for us and if we’re kicking each other out of bed thats not a very good relationship tactic.”

“What do you feel then about going to bed mad?”

“I’d really like us to try to never go to bed mad.  I don’t know if that’s possible but I’d really like that to be the case.”

“Are you still scared of losing me?” He asked holding her hand tightly.

“Yes, in all honestly I don’t think I’ll ever get over that fear, not completely its just happened to often.”

“Baby my family tends to live very long and happy lives, and you’re part of my familly.  You just have to remember a day of happiness is worth more than a week of unhappiness so just love me daily and we’ll be all good for as long as we both shall live.” He pulled me closer for kisses and a tight hug. “I love you angel, we’re in this together, whenever you get scared just hold me tight.”

“I think I need to travel with you. I’d rather if there was an issue I was right beside you than on the other side of the planet.”

“That we can do and remember babe, anytime you want to quit your job you can, we can use your travel skills or just strategy in general to help the band,  I’ll sign you as a consultant so you work for yourself and are paid by the corporation so you won’t be sleeping with the boss.” He smirked.

“Its ok, you’re sleeping with the boss in our personal lives so its only fair.” I crack at him.

“You little brat.” He laughed and pulled me over his lap and spanked my ass for about 10 slaps.

He then moved me to stand up and started taking my pants off.

“What are you doing?”

“I want to make sure I left the proper pink tone.”

“Jon we’re still on the plane.”

“Its ok.” He pushes the button for privacy and then continues to remove my jeans. “You know you’re a bad wife for not just wearing a skirt so I can do you throughout the plane ride.”

“Poor baby, you’ll survive not having sex for a few more hours.”

“Are you sure? Do you have any idea how much enjoyment I get from being inside you?”

“No I actually don’t, you gonna tell me.”

“nope I’m gonna show you tonight, over and over.” He reached up and kissed me.  Turning me around he looked at my ass. “Not quite pink enough I’ll have to work on learning the exact right amount to spank you to get the look I want.”

“Oh there’s a certain look on my ass you want?” I ask him smiling.

“Yep. Over my lap again babe.” He pulled me down and spanked me another 5 times and then smiled and rubbed my ass. “OH that’s very pretty.”  He then helped me stand up to put my pants back on. “Looks like its 15 mild or I’ll try later with 5 hard spanks. So we’ll play again after we swim tonight naked in the ocean.”

“Woah we’re doing what?” I ask him after I sit down next to him. My ass was a little sore but not bad.  I just felt the skin on my ass a little tight from the nerve endings that were on fire.

“Oh baby we’re going to be on a private island so you can you wear absolutely nothing for days and we’ll be all good.”

“Baby I’m not going out naked, if you take my top off in the water I’m not going to get upset but I’m not going to walk outside naked.”

“Someday maybe you’ll do that, just because I want you to.” He smiled.

“Do you think I’ll always give into you because you’re you?”

“No I think you’ll do it because you love me, and you know I love your tits and they are mine, all mine.”  He smiled and reached over and ran his finger down my face and over to my lips.

“You are so amazing Jonny but I’m also not that brave about my body.”

“I wish you would be, I love your body, you’ve had the things taken care of that you didn’t like when you moved to Chicago and you look amazing, your boobs are damn near perfect, your body is toned and that too is all mine.  So you see as soon as you figure out how smart I am and that I know everything you’ll strip and walk around naked for me. Besides baby we’re going to be in  Hawaii, wouldn’t it be great to have some memories of making love naked under a waterfall in that setting.  Its time to live for happiness and that happiness is with me your husband.”  Jon smiled and we kissed the rest of the way to Hawaii.

The next two weeks were spent deeply entwined with one another, we played tourist, photographers and lovers without a care in the world. By the time we go back to the mainland and return home, we have made love naked under water falls, swam together in the ocean naked and  I actually do walk out of our cabana topless to meet him on our private beach.  I put my bikini top on once I get out there but he’s so happy that I did it I get anything I want from him the rest of the night.  We stay and cuddle on the couch just looking at the ocean talking about our future and how we plan to live our lives.   The life we’ll share, the choices about kids and what we think of adoption.  Nothing is truly off limits the love we feel for each other truly is a balm for the soul.  By the end of our honeymoon I’m a much calmer woman, I trust in my husband that he is going to be there for me, I don’t have to be as scared anymore because he proved to me and reminded me over and over throughout our honeymoon that no matter what he has my back.  The world could come down on my shoulders but he would be fighting it off with me.  I’m never alone anymore and no matter what, no matter who makes me feel upset or angry or unsure of myself all I have to do is coming home and hug him, he’s always got my back and no one is every allowed to make me feel less than amazing. I’m his wife and I’m perfect the rest of the world can just get bent.

That makes me smile, its something my mom used to say stuff like that and it just allows my heart to heal even more.